More Change.

Something I'm trying to change about myself is my weight. I've struggled with this problem like more than half of America for my entire life. I used to be really self conscious about it in elementary school because I would get made fun of. I was always the biggest girl in the class and eventually, by my junior year of high school, I learned to deal with it. My junior year was the first year I ever had a boyfriend. It sounds sad, but having a boyfriend actually gave me confidence. It showed me that a boy actually liked the way I looked, even though I was fat. My self consciousness started going away, I was beginning to be more outgoing and I didn't let the way that I looked stop me from doing anything I wanted to do. I used to always tell myself that I don't deserve this body. I'm a good person, why do Ihave to get made fun of because of my weight? I played soccer for ten years before taking a year off and then starting up again this past fall. I've always enjoyed being active and exercising, as long as it doesn't involve running... But food was the thing I turned to when I felt like I didn't have anything else. It was, and still is, a comfort to me. Starting this month, I've been trying to cut down on unhealthy foods and start eating more fruits and vegetables. No more soda. No more processed chips or candy. Three years ago, I would've wanted to do this so a guy would like me. But now that I have the guy and the friends, I'm doing it for me.